**Editors Note**  It is not polite to comment on people's xanga unless they can comment back....Sarah Latif.

But yes, KU did not have school today.  Tornados came early Sunday morning and damaged our beautiful campus.   Sadly, however, we do have class tomorrow.  So while, life momentarily paused today, it goes on tomorrow.  In fact, I'm not sure I like class being canceled today.  I have four tests and 2(or 3) papers this week.  Kinda stressful, kinda nerve-racking, kinda evil.  Monday promised to be a little relieving, offering some last minute reviews and insights to future test questions.  Yet, we had no classes today, therefore I had no last minute reviews and such.  But I still have a test tomorrow, now three on Wednesday, paper on Wednesday and a paper due on Friday.  Eek!  This sucks.  I won't even through a "kinda" in that sentence just to make it sound better, it sucks.  I'm pondering throwing a "f-ing" in there.

So right now, I'm at a very emotionally unstable state.  My body doesn't know whether to break down or start studying. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!  I look at the lovely, smiling faces surrounding my desk and fail to understand how this blond girl smiles so much.  Doesn't she realize she has a crap-load to do right now?
1.  She's wasting time on xanga right now rather than diving into books of all kinds.
2.  She's rambling off awkward emotions to close friends and family.  I'm sorry.
3.  She's consuming way too much caffeine.

By the way, I don't have a workplace completely surrounded by pictures of me.  Pictures of close friends, pictures of the boy, pictures of me with the previous two, yes.  Pictures of just me, no.  It would make for a very weird and conceited workplace.

Well....I must go study.  Maybe by Saturday I'll remember what it's like to blink without fearing another test will be placed right in front of me.  jk....kinda.

Midterms suck. 

I think that's sufficient for now.

In case you were curious, here are some random facts about me. 

01: Considered moving to a different country.
02. Swam with wild dolphins.
03. Been on TV.
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive.
05. Been inside a real igloo.
06. Held a tarantula.
07. Taken a candlelit bath.
08. Said 'I love you' and meant it.
09. Hugged a tree.
10. Done a striptease.
11. Bungee jumped.
12. Visited London.
13. Watched a lightning storm at sea.
14. Stayed up all night long, and watched the sun rise.
15. Seen the Northern Lights.
16. Gone to a huge sports game.
17. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa.
18. Grown and eaten your own vegetables.
19. Touched an iceberg.
20. Slept under the stars.
21. Changed a baby's diaper.
22. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon.
23. Watched a meteor shower.
24. Gotten drunk on champagne.
25. Given more than you can afford to charity.
26. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope.
27. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit at the worst possible moment.
28. Had a food fight.
29. Bet on a winning horse.
30. Taken a sick day when you're not ill.
31. Asked/Almost asked out a complete stranger.
32. Had a snowball fight.
33. Photocopied your bottom on the office photocopier.
34. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can.
35. Held a lamb.
36. Enacted a favorite fantasy.
37. Taken a midnight skinny dip.
38. Taken an ice cold bath.
39. Had a meaningful conversation with a beggar.
40. Seen a total eclipse.
41. Ridden a roller coaster.
42. Hit a home run.
43. Fit three weeks miraculously into three days.
44. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking.
45. Adopted an accent for an entire day.
46. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors.
47. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment.
48. Had two hard drives for your computer.
49. Visited all 50 states.
50. Climbed the steps of Bunker Hill.
51. Taken care of someone who was drunk.
52. Had enough money to be truly satisfied.
53. Had amazing friends.
54. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country.
55. Watched wild whales.
56. Stolen a sign.
57. Backpacked in Europe.
58. Taken a road-trip.
59. Rock climbed.
60. Lied to foreign government's official in that country to avoid notice.
61. Midnight walk on the beach.
62. Went on a sky-dive.
63. Visited Ireland.
64. Been heartbroken longer then you were actually in love.
65. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger's table and had a meal with them.
66. Caught a fish.
67. Bench pressed your own weight.
68. Milked a cow.
69. Alphabetized your records (CDs).
70. Pretended to be a superhero.
71. Sung karaoke.
72. Lounged around in bed all day.
73. Posed nude in front of strangers.
74. Did scuba-diving.
75. Got it on to "Let's Get It On" by Marvin Gaye.
76. Kissed in the rain.
77. Played in the mud.
78. Played in the rain.
79. Gone to a drive-in theatre.
80. Done something you should regret, but don't regret it.
81. Visited the Great Wall of China.
82. Discovered that someone who's not supposed to have known about your blog has discovered your blog.
83: Wanted to freeze time and spend the rest of your life where you are.
84. Started a business.
85. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken.
86. Toured ancient sites.
87. Taken a sign language class.
88. Sword fought for the honor of a woman.
89. Broken something and then put it back together.
90. Gotten married.
91. Been in a movie.
92. Crashed a party.
93. Been caught in an embarrassing situation.
94. Kissed someone so passionately it made them dizzy.
95: Wanted to fly.
96. Had sex at the office.
97. Gone without food for 3 or more days.
98. Made cookies from scratch.
99. Won first prize in a costume contest.
100. Ridden a gondola in Venice
101. Gotten a tattoo.
102. Found that the texture of some materials can turn you on.
103. Rafted the Snake River.
104. Been on television news programs as an "expert".
105. Got flowers for no reason.
106: Stuffed your face so much that you got sick.
107. Got so drunk you don't remember anything.
108. Been addicted to some form of illegal drug.
109. Performed on stage.
110. Been to Las Vegas.
111. Recorded music.
112. Eaten shark.
113. Had a one-night-stand.
114. Gone to Thailand.
115. Been in a parade.
116. Bought a house.
117. Done something extremely dangerous you didn't regret later.
118. Been awake for more than 48 hours.
119: Driven a jet ski.
120. Been on a cruise ship.
121. Spoken more than one language fluently.
122. Gotten into a fight while attempting to defend someone.
123. Bounced a check.
124: Been seriously addicted to something.
125. Read - and understood - your credit report.
126. Raised children.
127. Recently bought and played with a favorite childhood toy.
128. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour.
129. Created and named your own constellation of stars.
130. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country.
131. Found out something significant that your ancestors did.
132. Called or written your Congress person.
133. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over.
134: Picked wildflowers.
135. Walked the Golden Gate Bridge.
136. Sang loudly in the car, and didn't stop when you knew someone was looking.
137. Wrote a book.
138. Had plastic surgery.
139. Survived an accident that you shouldn't have survived.
140. Wrote articles for a publication.
141. Lost over 100 pounds.
142. Held someone while they were having a flashback.
143. Piloted an airplane.
144. Pet a stingray.
145. Broken someone's heart.
146. Helped an animal give birth.
147. Burglarized someone's house.
148. Won money on a T.V. game show.
149. Broken a bone.
150. Killed a human being.
151. Gone on an African photo safari.
152: Wished you could read people's minds.
153. Driven any land vehicle at a speed of 100mph or faster.
154. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced.
155. Fired a rifle, shotgun or pistol.
156. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild.
157. Ridden a horse.
158. Had surgery.
159. Written your own song.
160: Had pie thrown in your face.
161. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon.
162. Slept through an entire flight: takeoff, flight, and landing.
163. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours.
164: Read a book longer than 1000 pages
165. Visited all 7 continents.
166. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days.
167: Spent more than $500 in a trip to the mall.
168. Fallen in love at an ancient Mayan burial ground.
169: Smiled so hard your mouth ached.
170. Eaten sushi.
171. Had your picture in the newspaper.
172. Had 2 (or more) healthy romantic relationships for over a year in your lifetime.
173. Changed someone's mind about something you care deeply about.
174. Gotten someone fired for their actions.
175. Gone back to school.
176. Parasailed.
177. Changed your name.
178. Shoplifted.
179. Eaten fried green tomatoes.
180. Read The Iliad.
181. Selected one "important" author whom you missed in school and read him/ her.
182. Dined in a restaurant and stolen silverware, plates, cups because your apartment needed them.
183. ...and gotten 86'ed from the restaurant because you did it so many times, they figured out it was you.
184. Taught yourself an art from scratch.
185. Killed and prepared an animal for eating.
186. Apologized to someone after inflicting hurt.
187. Skipped all your school reunions.
188. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language.
189. Been elected to public office.
190. Written your own computer language.
191. Thought to yourself that you're living your dream.
192. Had to put someone you love into hospice care.
193: Apologized when you didn't want to.
194. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn't know you.
195. Had a booth at a street fair.
196: Dyed your hair.
197: Been a DJ.
198: Found out someone was going to dump you via LiveJournal.
199: Written your own role playing game.
200: Thought you were going to die.
201: Gone on a month long vacation.
202: Had a concussion.
203: Randomly ran through a cornfield.
204: Watched the Lord of the Rings movies all in a row.
205: Eaten octopus.
206: Ridden a camel in another country.
207: Kissed a stranger.
208: Given a memorized speech to a group of people that lasted more than 10 minutes.
209: Chased the rainbow.
210: Learned how to play more than 3 instruments.
211: Made a complete fool of yourself in front of hundreds of people.
212: Met the President.
213: Gone to the authorities because of a stalker.
214: Did something illegal.
215: Buried one/both of your parents.
216: Been to the Great Barrier Reef.
217: Had a professional massage.
218: Punched someone because you were mad.
219: Hurt yourself on purpose.
220: Watched someone die.
221: Lied to the IRS.
222: Donated blood.
223: Been to a professional square dance.
224: Driven a tractor.
225: Thought you were having the "best day of your life".

Well a New Year brings new problems, I suppose.

Tomorrow I get all four of my wisdom teeth removed.  Viciously yanked out of my defenseless mouth.  True they're giving me pain killers and gas to knock me out, but that won't stop the pain, bleeding and swelling.  I've heard from stories and personal encounters that the procedure truly isn't that bad.  But there's always that one horror story, the one time where it was the bad time, to haunt any comfort you might have.  Oh the joy that I can only anticipate.

January 6th marked the 11 month anniversary for Stevie and me.  Weird.  11 months, two horrible breakups, countless arguements, priceless memories, wonderful experiences...all to make for a great relationship.  And yet if someone hinted at this a couple months ago when we were working through hell, I doubt I would have believed them.  It's hard to be faithful and find the silver lining when you're balancing your entire world on a thin, strained line.  Faith, with support and time, can work wonders though.  Here we are.  The couple no one thought would make it.  Interesting.

And yet this only worsens the problems with the parentals.  My relationship, although not new, still challenges that dear little dream my parents fight to maintain of their daughter still being a child.  High school graduation, one year at college and an overall obedient life pointless because I'm on 19.  I have a feeling despite my age, I will never be old enough for my parents.  Never old enough to make rational decisions, never old enough to think differently than them, never old enough to live my life the way I want to.  Imagine that. 

I'm still trying to balance my quest for the right combination of religion, school, fun, relationships, family, friends and everything else.  Everytime I think I've found a good mixture, something goes wrong.  Maybe that will be my New Year's Resolution.  To find the right mixture.